Wednesday, August 16, 2006

I'm like, angry at numbers

I guess I see what you productive people mean about just keeping busy and to just keep on moving forward. Because too often I take the time to stop and think about shit too much. And shit gets to me, ya know? Money issues make me want to tear my hair out. I don't know how people do it. I'm probably making more money than someone with my education (or lack of) deserves, yet it's still nothing. I thought I had come so far, but I'm still for the most part living from paycheck to paycheck with no kinds of savings, no 401k, no credit cards, no wealthy relatives, none of that. Bah.
I feel sick about things. Birthday is next Thursday and it seems like I always get kinda down around that time, getting all reflective about shit. There's hardly any of my 20s left and I feel like it's all a blur of time that I've wasted, or at least could've done something better with. I've got a lot on my mind and it's all a jumbled up mess, probably should keep some of this depressing crap to myself. Bah!

5 comments:

Wookiee Rage said...

i haven't been around too much, so i hope this doesn't come off arrogant or high-and-mighty or too familiar, but you're still just a kid. if you were in your 30's maybe you could be worried. you're not, and you've got a home and mortgage. that's more than i have and i am in my 30's.

no credit cards, means no credit card debt and that's awesome (and more than many can say). it's not great for the credit score, but you've already got the house so screw that.

you're doing fine. you've got plenty of time.

(oh, and my word verification is "sxydik". it's like blogger knows the real me.)

Gnomeself Be True said...

Yea...it'll be much better when you're looking at leaving your 40s.
Skip the credit cards. Start the IRA/401k.
You've got all the time in the world. Assuming you start right away.

Anonymous said...

Fret not. We're here to read all the stuff, depressing or not. I hear your fear and relate. Keep on, though. It always ebbs and flows. Such is life, hey?

For the record, I hate celebrating what feels like another wasted year to me. Look to the good. There's some there, I can guarantee it... mostly.
*smile*
(oh, and my word verification, "xbippyrs," says absolutely nothing about me. *grin*)

Fluffycat said...

yeah, as wookiee rage said, the fact that you own a house is pretty dang awesome. don't stress yourself out about what you don't have, focus on what you do have. and as the song goes, age ain't nothing but a number. rock on, birthday girl!

Yossarian said...

here is how to overcome your hatred of numbers - count how many snakes are on the plane.