I feel uneasy.
And yes, I'm listening to The Smiths.
The world seems like a depressing and scary place, and further invokes my sometimes irrational anxieties. I start thinking of death and my mind just can't stop this stream of awful thoughts. I feel my heart beating too rapidly, pressure behind my eyes, my stomach clenches up, I start shaking and feel an overwhelming sense of hopelessness and despair. I hate panic attacks. I can barely cope in my sheltered little world, how could I ever deal with what other people around the world have to deal with? I don't mean to sound selfish. I am very sensitive to the pain and suffering of other people. Sometimes I can't help but take it to heart.
So sick of the senseless fucking violence.