Thursday, April 03, 2008

Let's Get Lost

I seem to have the kind of voice that makes people drift off while I'm mid-sentence. (I'll have to put that on my next job application/resume under leadership skills.) Ok, so being a dynamic speaker doesn't come so naturally to everyone, big deal. The bigger problem is that I just don't feel that I can express myself like I used to, or relate to people in the same way I used to. And it's like I'm clogged up with stuff I can't say, or even write. At some point, I just... got quiet. The book I'm reading happened to have a line in it about how when you're quiet so much of the time it doesn't make people think of you as being deep or thoughtful, it just makes them forget you. Or something to that extent. But - and I know I've said this before - then when I am feeling "talky" it just all comes out like verbal vomit. Or maybe dry heaves. Either way, you'll want to watch out if you're in the vicinity. Guhh, when did I revert to my adolescent years and become so socially AWKWARD again?

In work-related news, we're moving our office again. It sounds like our new location will be more "officey" and hopefully will be a better fit, although I'm a bit skeptical. So um, do you think it looks shady when a business has a really vague, nondescript name, a weak website, ridiculously long and hard to remember email addresses, and then also moves every two years? I'm just sayin. But hey, maybe we're on the up and up. I hear that this new place will probably be equipped with both hot and cold water options in the bathroom - faan-say!

The family-related news is just not good, and has been looming over me these days. Again, involving my brother that is often in trouble and now has a major health issue on top of everything else. It just makes me feel... well, sad and conflicted but also guilty. His situation is out of my control at this point, but I just feel like I should do or should've done something - even if that's just praying and thinking positively - and I haven't been that good at even doing that.

Well, I feel like I'm just throwing out negative after negative, so how 'bout I switch to a lighter topic? To cheer myself up lately, I've taken to online shoe-shopping. Oh, I haven't been blowing a bunch of money on it - mostly just spending a ridiculous amount of time perusing and considering items I MIGHT buy, eventually. Buying shoes is one of those stereotypical things that people expect all women to do compulsively, but I have to say I'm... well, somewhat clueless when it comes to footwear. I also am cheap and have to get it through my damn head that maybe in this case quality is more important than quantity. Thus, the pile of clearance shoes that hurt or don't fit right and are sitting around not being worn. I ordered some Clarks from Amazon recently, because I like how they look and they seem to have a reputation for being comfortable and of quality, (and ok - they were heavily marked down) but while they are cute and all, I'm not finding them as comfortable as I hoped they would be. The comfort and fit will vary from style to style within the brand you say? So I can't just pick a brand and assume all of their shoes will be wonderful? Well, shit. Now I've got a pair of Softspots shoes on the way. Have I tried these on before? No. Has anyone personally recommended them to me? Um, no. I just thought they looked nice as well as functional, and I'm taking a chance that they are as comfortable and pillowy as they claim to be in the description. And, alright - they were 30 bucks BUT they were 70 originally. Eh? Do I just set myself up for bad footwear? Or does cost not necessarily mean quality? Because I've read all kinds of awesome reviews of Dansko shoes, none of which are under $100 and yet, the almost-new pairs that were (granted) handed down to me... well, they really aren't too impressive or comfortable or anything. Maybe it's just me. If you have shoe advice, please share. I know trying them on first is a no-brainer, and I do when I can but I just haven't been too happy with the shoe selection around here, so I've turned to the internets. So, do you go for looks or comfort or clearance? Do you have a favorite brand that's never let you down? Do you have wicked high arches like me? Haalp!


Peggasus said...

Well, I have nothing to offer on the work-front, because I don't, you know, have a job...

But I understand about the being quiet thing. I really don't think I'm shy or anything, and some would even call me talkative, but that's maybe just after we get to know each other. Like that whole 'no friends here' problem I continue to have. I hesitate to say anything to even the other women at the gym, though I sometimes do. We do know a few couples we see out occasionally, and those girls have known each other for a long time and are obviously close friends, and they seem to like me and I like them, too, but should *I* be the one to say, hey, want to meet for lunch or something? I just should, I guess. What could happen? They hem and haw and make a lame excuse and then I die alone and friendless in this town. So what?

But shoes? Oh, honey, now you're talking my language!

Seriously, you're not liking the Clark's? I LOVE Clarks's's's. Some do fit better than others, though, that I will admit. I still think about my first pair, which I wore long after they should have been thrown out. I still may have them stashed somewhere, like a little shoe security blanket. I loved them so. I also have at least 6 other pair I currently wear. I got alot of them at DSW, they are lots cheaper there, like maybe $40 or under. Score!

I broke down and finally bought some Danskos last year, after coveting them forever, and I seriously love them too. I got a cute strappy dress pair in navy, which I LOVE, and a pair of the classic clog things (also love) in jade leather. They are well made and will last for years. Go to, they are almost 1/2 price there. I think I paid about $65 for each.

But my awesome cowboy boots that I got in Nashville are still my favorites. I get so many compliments on them. I think we'll have to get some more when we go again this year.

Fluffycat said...

I'll preface this with saying I'm not a shoe person, but I am very picky when it comes to buying shoes. Unless I know they are perfect fit (like New Balance sneakers), I won't buy them online. I will seriously go to a store and try on ten pairs to find one I want.

KC said...

I'm not a shoe person. I'm too cheap to pay more than $40 for anything. Saying that, tho, I do have two Rubbermaid tubs filled with shoes. 90% of them are black. The other 10% are beige. I admit that I am a very boring shoe person.

I'm following you on Twitter now.

Anonymous said...

You should try Sofft shoes...they are super comfy and stylish...

That Nervous Girl said...

peg - I know, I'm awkward making new friends, and have very few to speak of at the moment. It's hard to make the first move, like "Hey there! I'm nice, really, please talk to me!"
I haven't given up on the Clarks - I think I just picked a style that isn't super-comfortable. Or they just need a little more breaking in. I'll definitely give their shoes another try, because I think they've got so many good looking styles that I like.

fluffycat - Trying on is important (just like with bras - they're all slightly different, or is that just me?) but I just wish there was a better shoe selection TO try on!

kc - Me too! I'm trying to get over my boring-shoe ways while still keeping it cheap, we'll see how that goes! ;)

anon - Ooh, I do like the looks of the Sofft shoes - will have to keep an eye out for them.