Tuesday, August 23, 2005

I fear change...

Alright, so we're trying to quit smoking. By "we" I mean, my boyfriend hasn't had a smoke since Saturday, decided to get the patches and I'm very proud of him. Then there's me. Granted I didn't smoke as much to begin with, but I haven't completely quit. So I didn't really want to tell people like "Hey! Yay for me, I'm quitting smoking...pretty much" and have them tell me I suck and that doesn't count. But it's been on my mind, so I decided to share. I think I'm doing okay so far. I would normally smoke between 10-15 cigarettes a day and now I'm down to 4 or 5. I know I might be dragging this out longer, but then according to research it's better for women to quit at a certain time during their cycle, that I don't think I'm in right now. Shut up, it's true! I also haven't bought any more of my usual brand, so the smokes I do have are lighter and less enjoyable. So we're eating a lot of snacks, but getting out of the house more too. The bad thing is, I was big on snacks anyway. I'm a bad influence. I'm normally not one to think one should deprive themselves of things they enjoy. I'm an enabler. I do want to be supportive though, it's the right thing to do. He's handling it really well so far and hasn't gotten mad when I breakdown and go outside to smoke, but I feel guilty about it anyway.
We'll see how it goes. I do like the idea of having more money to spare, not having my hair get stinky, and all the medical reasons too. It's been 9 years and I've never REALLY tried to quit. I should have more faith in myself, cause even though I'm terribly easily addictable, there's also part of my personality that naturally wants to punish myself and deprive myself of things. Fucked up, I know - but it all works out I guess.

7 comments:

Soffy O said...

Good luck! I quit for 13 days at the beginning of August. I'm going to try again at the beginning of September. Ha ha!

ps. you are very pretty! (can one say that in a non-lesbian way? i hope so!)

Nervous Girl said...

Aww, soffy o, you're sweet - thank you!

HemisphereDancer said...

Hey there -

You don't try to quit you just quit .

I speak from experience that the "weeing yourself off cigarettes" doesn't work.

You just have to go cold turkey.

It will be tough.

You will be tempted.

But you can do it.

I quit 5 years ago and haven't had one since the day I quit.

Anonymous said...

You're doing good and you've been incredibly sweet and supportive. And uhh, I haven't had one since FRIDAY. Just so we're clear...

*Goes back to rocking back-and-forth in the corner and twitching*

- J

Jim said...

Brava!

Yossarian said...

dont quit. smoking is cool.

Wookiee Rage said...

Smoking = Bad, so good for you just to get that out of the way.

Now i want to talk about important things, and the heart of your post, snacks. I did some shopping at Target the other day and this is what my cart looked like when the day was done:

1 box of Little Debbie Pecan Spinwheels
1 box of Little Debbie Coffee Cakes
1 box of Little Debbie Boston Creme Rolls
1 box of Little Debbie Cosmic Brownies
1 box of Little Debbie Oatmeal Creme Pies
1 box of Kebbler Cheese and Cheese Crackers
1 King Size Whatchamacallit
4 Special Edition Dark Chocolate Almond Joys (for co-workers)
1 pair of 275 Thread Count Sage King Size Pillow Cases
2 100 watt Crystal Clear Lightbulbs
1 pair of Brown Battery Powered Paper Latterns
1 small Atomic Travel Clock

so, Snacks = Good. We all have our vices. No one should ever deprive themselves of the things they enjoy.