Tuesday, June 26, 2007

Invisible Roadblocks

Why do I always feel the need to give myself an intro to what I'm going to say? It's a whole lot of leading up to nothing. I feel as if I'm gradually unlearning any previous communication skills I had. Bear with, I feel some train-of-thought, free-form posts coming. And well, there I go again...

Last night I wasn't sleeping well, kept waking up in that annoying "I'm seriously WAY too awake at this hour" kind of way. Stupid brain wouldn't shut-up. The internal monologue went something like this:
"Hey! What was that joke, that was somewhat funny that time? Hmm, now you can't get back to sleep til you think of it! How did that go again?"
"Why? Who cares? Please, PLEASE shut up and just stop thinking about it!"
"Hey, how about I just keep repeating the song 'Hey Jude' in your head for no reason?"
"Can I just conjure up some abstract yet poignant dreams?"
"Fine. As long as I can sleep..."

And then I dreamed that a very nice lady (though I'm not quite sure who she was) was gently telling me that I could benefit from some counseling - because, A) most people can benefit from it, and B) I've hit somewhat of a roadblock that I need to work through in order to get on with my life.

Huh. And then I dreamed that I woke up and told you that.

The point is not lost on me, but still... weird.


Quinn said...

Ugh, I hate that. I usually get half of a line from a tv show or movie stuck in my head and then it runs on a loop, over and over, and I can't sleep because my brain is going nuts trying to place the actor and the episode/movie.

Fluffycat said...

I believe everyone can benefit from counseling in one way or another, and some people just like to have a paid audience. :)

I hate the not being able to sleep thing or waking up in the middle of the night. Even with all my meds, it still happens to me occasionally. In fact, lately it has been happening a lot with all my dating madness.