I feel permanently damaged, a defective product that never got a recall. I feel like... a lot of overdramatic shitty things. I know it won't always feel like this but I am stuck in the now of it. I wish there weren't so many days that I was thinking to myself that I couldn't wait for some time alone so I could cry without having to explain why. It doesn't work like that. You can't just save it all up for a more appropriate time. I'm feeling like I need something but can't quite grasp it. I want closeness, yet I don't really want to be around anyone - even myself, really. Which I suppose works since I'm feeling like some kind of people-repellant. The image in my mind of how I must appear to others is devastating. So yeah, feeling depressed to say the least.
Friday, October 27, 2006
Big Empty
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I'm so sorry you're feeling like this. I don't know what else to say, except that I hope it passes quickly.
~ Peggasus
sorry to hear it. i know the feeling. it does get better.
I go through this periodically, too. Big hugs to you, it will get better.
It's a good thing that you can't save it up for a more appropriate time! Compartmentalizing your feelings and stuff sucks, because it's hard to get back to being the other, less compartmentalizing way.
Thanks everybody, and sorry for the gloominess - just had to get it out somehow.
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